My Heart, Be Still

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His Mercy Endures Forever

 

“The flames of mercy are burning me. I desire to pour them out upon human souls. Oh, what pain they cause Me when they do not want to accept them!.” - Words spoken to St. Faustina by God, The Diary of St. Faustina

When was the last time that you went to the sacrament of reconciliation?

At different points in my life, the answer to this question has varied completely. Many times, I’ve been a once-a-year confession attendee (since that is the requirement to remain a Catholic in good standing with the church, not because I wanted to go). There was a time when I didn’t even meet that requirement. Yet, other periods of time has seen me attempt to go monthly, when I’m trying my hardest to better myself, although those periods don’t often last too long. The reasons to not go to confession always seem abundant but the root of them all is typically one thing for me: fear.

Fear that God won’t want to forgive me since He knows how badly I’ve tripped and fallen AGAIN.

Fear that the priest, although acting in persona Christi, will always remember the wrongs that I’ve done.

Fear that someone is going to judge me for skipping or coming late to a normal life event just to make sure that I can make it to confession.

Fear that those also in the confession line are going to judge how much time I spend in the confessional.

But sisters, why do we let fear dictate our lives?

Jesus said again and again, “Be not afraid.”

He loves you. He wants you to come home to Him. He wants you to let Him in. He wants you to let him fix your hurt. He wants you to let Him hold you while you sob. He wants your messiness. He wants YOU.

In fact, He wants you so bad that he died - AND ROSE - just so that you could join Him in heaven some day. His mercy and love run THAT deep.

And so today, let’s start trying to live fearlessness out. Maybe your fear isn’t the confessional, maybe it’s silence or time spent alone. Regardless, open that fear up to God and let him lead you through that fear to the other side where He is in all of His glory.

And remember, if you do make it to confession, when you leave that room you are a clean slate. It doesn’t matter what you have already done, you are NOT defined by that. You can start anew. Let Jesus in, let him guide you, and let him - in this time of Easter - give you a new life.

I challenge you, sisters, to face you fear with God by your side this week. Let him wrap you in His mercy and guide you through the doubt. He will not abandon you.

As always, thank you for reading! You’re all in my imperfect prayers :)